Friday, April 9, 2010
When I came home from our homeschool Park Day today, my heart was weary. Very weary. The needs are astounding. One Mom has had both her Dad and her Father in Law pass away in the last 4 months and is heartbroken. One mother's husband may be terminally ill. One mother is suffering a crisis in marriage; a huge crisis beyond belief. After hearing of those needs and praying with one of the Moms in particular, I came home and settled into my own afternoon routine. My plan for the day: to plan.
With two out of the norm Worship events coming up, my own hands feel quite full. Selecting the right songs, wanting to hear the Lord, and then throw my unfamiliararity with powerpoint into the mix, and you'll find me on the floor in a pool of tears - your basic self pity. Of course I am exaggerating to make my point. I was yanked back from pity into reality when I reached into my desk drawer to find a piece of paper, just anything, something to write down the name of a song that had come to mind that I didn't want to forget. An envelope: no,not that one. It looked too new. Then my hand drew out a card, one I had purchased about 2 years ago when a friends Father had passed away. Now, who was that for? Was I sure it was her? Now, I really am not sure. Why didn't I send it then? Unfortunately, this is not an isolated example. I have drawers full of unsent cards for Birthdays, well-wishes of various kinds, sympathy and the like. I allowed the thoughts of love, care, and joy to go unspoken. Life, my own, became its usual distraction. The card never made it to its intended destination, and the opportunity to reach out in Jesus name was left undone.
Lord, today, make me different. Shake me from my own complacency to live sacrificially for others. A stamp, words of love, and a trip to the post office hardly qualifies as sacrifice, but let me take the time to do what it takes to be You to someone, in word or in deed. Thank you for grace. Help me to sufficiently express Your love to those around me, and please meet those very present needs of those around me. Amen.